Thank you for being so honest. That’s progress! :)
I get what you’re saying about being envious of other people. I find it helps to instead focus on your own purpose for writing, and your life. Then find out more about the people that seem to have the success you want. Connect with them. Maybe you will or won’t want what they have after you know more. At the very least, you can learn what they are doing well.
I believe we all have greatness inside us. So keep enjoying your life, your Kayak-Packing, and know that you are enough (and always have been!).
You may not have a 1000 fans — yet, but I think what’s important is to honour every 1 fan you already have.
Have fab day Wings of Karma! Thank you so much for sharing :)